Ugh.
So here i am, at another PIVOTAL POINT in my life.
school is going…i could be doing better, i should be doing better, i MUST do better or i’ll pay the consequences….fml.
then there is work, which i LOVE, but hate the hours, come on i went from 20+, to 15 + to 12 + and now 8 hours A WEEK! like WTF. i can’t do shit with that little money. i hate the hours! i need another job PRONTO. and that whole job hunting process freaking sucks ass.
i’ve decided what career ill be pursuing, Interior Design, i’m just scare to take the step and pursue it, i’m just such a lazy bitch and get discourage. i need motivation, and i know its bad, and i know i should do it just for me! i can’t, i wish i had a boy or a friend that pushes me even harder and harder and wouldn’t let me quit for me and for him/her.
the unexisting topic of my love life continues to be the same.
at least i’m losing weight and i’m going hard at the gym. that’s a good thing.
i can’t not help but regret my decision of quitting the mission inn job, if only i had stick tru it at this point i would have been working in a different position and that job was GREAT, free food, and 40 hrs … but then there is the school issue and idk if i did the right decision!
i mean with a job like that i could moved out already!
ARRRGGHH fuck my life. i feel so stuck and annoyed and sad and mad.