Why not me?
What is there from stopping me becoming the person i want to be?
The real person i want to be?
NOTHING - but just me. my own fears, my fears of rejection, my fears of failure, my fears of unacceptable …
Well you know what? FUCK YOU to all that. i’m tired of being this other norm guy. why must i settle for that when i was meant for greatness..just like everyone else.
As i laid there on my bed, i was just thinking of the thought i’m sure lots and lots have. a beautiful house with an ocean view, with a nice car, a partner, a nice body. and i thought to myself why not me? why do i doubt and stop myself so much from reaching what i could reach. there is no reason why i can’t reach those dreams. where i have EVERYTHING in my hands to do so, and there and there something in my head clicked and something in my brain changed.
And change is coming my way. major change. i always wanted this hipster lifestyle but i was afraid since i was too gay and too into GaGa i wouldn’t pull it off, well FUCK YOU to all those myths. I am going to be and dress and like whatever the hell i want.
And my body well in the past month i have lost 5 lbs and i have gained muscle and it feels great and of course i am going to reach that dream body i have always wanted and there is nothing that can’t stop me.
I have a job - which i’m getting better at and getting more hours and it feels great to stop being so shy and just going for it and doing good.
I just passed my drivers test and i have my license, i have my car which i’m paying slowly but surely.
I was able to get classes and there is nothing from stopping me from doing good but my own laziness and well FUCK YOU laziness i’m going to own them classes and i’m going to finish my degree and transfer to an university and get my bachelors in Sociology and i’m going to have a great job in the future and i will achieve all my dreams and there isn’t nothing that will stop me.
I’m going to be the best person i can be. i am going to be good and believe it when someone tells me i’m good. no more talking shit and throwing shade. that’s not very nice. no more judging, no more making jokes, no more bull shit and no more yolo - this is my life and i’m going to live it up to my full potential.
Whether the same people i have in my life now make it to that other stage of my life i’m beginning well that will just show who are my true friends and who has my best interest in life.
I dont want to be just one in a million, an average. i want to be look up, i want to be respected, admired, i want to be a leader, i want to be a better person.
and you know what? there is nothing in my way anymore from stopping me.