“I’m right over here, why can’t you see me, oooh
I’m giving it my all, but I’m not the girl you’re taking home, ooooo
I keep dancing on my own”
So i have been asking Greg questions as an anonymous person for the last few days asking advice on what to do - he didn’t know - he might suspect - but he can’t know for sure it was me. On the last question i asked him what i can do if i had more interested in a boy but that boy didn’t show the same interested back … me referring to him … he said:
Then be the best friend you can be and accept their wishes, plus you may not know what the future has in store for you’re love life.
And that hit home, cause it’s true i should respect the way it’s going even if it’s not what i want or wish. As i feel that he might be interested in more in a sexual way than an actual relationship type of way.
For now i won’t talk to him - i’ll wait for him to talk to me and when (if) he does i’ll talk to him as friends and friends only and stay like that for now - besides right now its ‘ME’ time - Started eating better - tomorrow hitting the gym - its time to focus on me and change and be a better me before i can be a better person for somebody’s else.