Dear Charlie;
Things change, for the better and for the worse.
(Personally)
I was doing good in the sense of my weight lost but all that has been thrown out of the window once again. I go up and down. It’s a mess. Like my life. Always up and down and up and down. An ending roller coaster
Things with Dominick didn’t work out. And it was mainly my fault, as I was an idiot drunk texter who spoke about feelings way too soon but he did let me on, and in my defense, I had the grounds to believe what I said. Regardless, things ended up. My heart was broken but it was just another name on the list. Nothing too crazy.
I’m still struggling with . He’s always a constant though in my head. 😭. Idk who to erased him. Well I won’t as I know for sure imma get a tattoo of in my chest in the near future.
I only have the express job atm. I left pier 1 for CNA school but now I’m even doing that. I don’t like it. So I’m struggling to find a new job. I’m struggling to find what I want to study once more And more time is slipping by 😭.
Jonathan is about to go to ohio to do his masters and well things are going to change, drastically, and they’ll be hard but I’m sorta looking forward to it so I can so my very best to do what’s best for me. So I’m scared and excited for what’s coming up in this next month.
I started talking to Brandon again, one of my most regretful guys I talked to, I hope i get a second shot at trying something there.
We,ll see where I am the next time I write to you
Wish me luck and send me good vibes.
Love, Alan
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